Unexpected

This past week our church had an event to help people get connected to Life Groups.  Life Groups are just an opportunity to make a big church smaller by placing a group of people in your life with the intention of encouraging each other and living life together.  I was excited to be placed in a group and before I walked in I just prayed that God would do the placing and there would be a purpose to which group I ended up in.  It turned out that there were too many people wanting to be placed in groups and not enough established group space. I was disappointed with the lack of foresight that this might be a problem.  The whole procedure of picking groups could be greatly improved in my opinion.  Or maybe I'm still recovering from being the last one picked for a game of kickball in 2nd grade so situations like this irk me ;)  Anyway, I didn't want to push my way through the madhouse in the front so I just decided that I wouldn't sign up for a group at this point.  After a turn of events I was pressured, forced, asked to lead a group of people that made up a new group.  I'll be honest, I didn't want to lead.  I wanted to be led.  I felt a little manipulated by the time I got home and after feeling sorry for myself, I prayed.  And after a bit of time realized that this wasn't what I had planned, but it is what he had planned.  I am humbled in the fact that I ask for guidance, but honestly only if it's just what I want.  yikes!  So, while I'm wrestling through the ins and outs of this realization, I have a potluck to plan for my Life Group ;) And I have a renewed sense of excitement for what's to come!